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Ivan Lian Jie Sheng
Singapore
A peaceful corner in Tampines
deceight 081289

archdevil89@hotmail.com

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My Darling Cheryl Theo
THAT IS WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT
Sports, read, soccer
Nice tan
The Sun when its needed.
Money
If I like you, its your company.
The carrying out of a process called Slacking.
Nice music
Freedom to do anything i want
5 Aspiration. You guys made secondary school life memorable.

BUT THIS ISN'T
Rainy days when it shouldn't.
Being depressed.
Being lied to.
When I think too much.
left with no money.
my com when it lags.

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Andre
Baby Kristen
Caiyun
Chris
Elizabeth
Fadzli
Gerald
Hanyang
Janet
Lindy
Lee Cheng
Leonard
Madeline
Michelle
Pang Chuen
Pearllene
Peng Soon
Pris
Rachel Yeo
Rachel Tan
Rachel Tan's other blog
Rashida
Ramesh
Sarah
Skye
Sheryl
Shuqi
Shuyan
Suzette
V Tay

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Saturday, August 29, 2009, 5:21 PM

the invader

my girl is so awesome
i wanna love her forever
and marry her
:DDD

whahahaha

Sunday, August 23, 2009, 11:34 AM

Ring The Bell, Cast A Spell.

I really don't know whats going on now.
I don't know.

Caught Where Got Ghost on Friday night as dad wanted to watch so he dragged the whole family along.
Its a stupid show thought.
Definitely not worth the money for a show.
I advice you not to go watch if you haven't.
Draggy.
Boring.
Only certain parts were funny.
Oh wells.

I wanna watch UP! Anyone wanna watch with me? =D

Gramps is going overseas next week!
So I have a car all to myself. Wuahaha.
Its much more convenient but not convenient on the wallet though. haha
He and my granny's going on Tuesday and I just nice I have dental on that day so I offered to fetch them as no one is free to.
So nice of me right.
Heh.

Bored.
Bored.
Bored.
Bored.
Bored.

Ok. I don't have much to fill in here.
Sleeping soon.
Nights!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009, 12:00 AM

Sing The Song Of Celebration

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!

Since birth, you have been there for us.

Supporting us in times of need.

Always being there when we need you.

Being the mum that some crave of, but can't have.

Being strict when its needed.

Showing your loving and compassionate side to balance.

For watching us grow up, guiding us along the way.

For being the strong and independent woman you are.

Thank you.

Even though you have your business to run, you still made time for us.

Ever since I can remember, outings are always an enjoyment.

The zoo.
The beaches.
The times we went swimming.
The most memorable?
Kranji beach where we would step in knee deep mud and the occasional helmet crabs and ever gross worms to pick out clams.
Those were my childhood days.
And I don't regret not sticking infront of the tv the whole day stuck to cartoons like some kids do.
I miss my childhood.
They were the most fun and carefree days of my life.

Thanks mum, for showering me with your love and care.
For always, always being there.
Hopefully for a long time to come.
Thanks mum.
I love you.

Sunday, August 16, 2009, 2:33 PM

Wanna play the game of cheat?

Whats the point of getting angry over something,
when you do the same and worse.

Even when I met my friends yesterday,
I made sure that I wouldn't do anything that would be deemed unacceptable.
I thought about your feelings, or if you even had any left.
I didn't meet any girls. Or girl even though I could.
I just needed to talk to someone before I went to find you.
But what do I get in return.
Something much worse and unimaginable.
I didn't know you would do such a thing.
I didn't know you were such a person.
Oh wells.
It was coming ain't it.
I should have seen it coming.
Good luck with him.

2:20 AM

Fairytale ending?

Decided to change my blog skin.
Kinda out of the blue decision but it was quite worth it looking at the end result.
I kinda like it.
But I bet no one comes here anymore.
This blog is like a dead blog. A few random posts on and off.
But I don't care.
Its just a place for me to remember stuffs.
The good or the bad.

But recently, its been bad.
I'm quite down in the dumps these few days with disagreements and stuffs.
Guess its really gonna end.
Sigh.
How I miss those days which were full of laughter.
Nothing but laughter and fun.
Just enjoying our time together.
Enjoying each other's company.
But now its been kinda different.
Who knows how things turned for the worst so fast.
Maybe its just me.

I'm sorry.

Unhappy about what happened a few weeks back, we got into an argument.
But this argument is like..
Really really really bad.
Sigh.

On Friday we hardly talked.
My messages went unreplied.
I really was feeling very terrible.
Its like there isn't any hope left.
It never was this bad before.
This time, its for real.
Sent my mum and sisters off as they headed to JB to see stars. I would have joined them had it not been our day.
Had dinner with them but hardly ate. My mum kept giving me weird looks.
Usually I eat alot. But I didn't feel like eating. Sorry.
I needed to talk to someone. So I asked Mahdi out.
He's like. The man. One of my best buddies.
And he agreed but could only make it today over lunch so I agreed.
He called Adam too, so I had my 2 great friends to confide in.
They're always there for me. Always.
Thanks guys.

Went to pick them up and headed for a place to eat and talk.
Adam brought his camera for god knows what. Stupid fella.
Had a good long talk, giving me lots to think about.
Gave some great advice.
I guess that meeting really had me driven to give more to the relationship.
But sadly, I don't think its needed anymore.

Sigh.
Sorry I wasn't there to meet when you expected me to.
Guess I took the wrong step again.
Argh.

I'm quite disappointed in myself as well.
Feel useless.
That I can't even be a good boyfriend.
I think..
Sometimes I try too hard.
Sometimes I don't even try at all.
Sigh.
I wish I wasn't me.
I wish that my character was better.
Maybe in my next life perhaps.
Please?
Its really torturing on my loved ones around me.
They're better off with me not being around.

After meeting them, I headed for home as she wasn't replying already no matter how many messages I sent.
Mah left to meet his girl while Adam went home.
But they went popular first to get something. Didn't join them though.
And while parking, I scraped the back of my dad's car again.
Sigh.
What else could go wrong.
That feeling inside of me became worse.
Went online for a while, hoping she would be there.
Wasn't though.
Than her mum messaged me asking if she was with me.
I replied no.
I happen to see her post on facebook and saw her online.
Talked to her.. asking her where she was. But..
No reply..

Sigh.

Guess she was with someone else.
Maybe he was of better company than me.
That sickening feeling just came out again.
I had to go anywhere else than stay there any longer.
Messaged Wen Qiang to see if he was free.
But sadly he was out.
And as I scrolled through my phone looking at contacts,
I decided not to meet anyone else.
Out of pacts and promises.
And I did something I haven't done in a long time..

I brought lucky for a walk.

My boy.
I needed a stroll.
A quiet stroll.
Just thinking.
Walked to places I've never been before.
Just following lucky where ever he wanted to go.
He just walked though, which was quite abnormal considering that he usually tries to pull away from his leash.
Quite enjoyed the walk and his company.
Although he pooed in the middle of a pavement.
Ran away from the scene of crime cause I didn't have anything on me.
Walked for about an hour or so before returning home.
Gave him a good long bathe.
Think he really appreciated it as he walked into the shower himself when I told him to take a bathe.
Half way through, dad called asking if I had my dinner.
I didn't. But I wasn't hungry as well.
So I told him to go on his own.
But after bathing lucky and there was no reply from her,
I didn't want to just rot infront of the com.
I decided to go find my dad and keep him company.

Turns out he went to a cafe at Safra Tampines to eat.
Drove down to meet him.
Turns out the cafe was a gaming cafe.
Not in computers but rather board games.
And he was entitled to 2 hours of gaming free.
So we decided to play some games that they offered.
LOL.
Thats like, creating history.

I didn't know he was one who would play.
But its just a one off thing.
A rare chance that it would happen again.
I don't really know him that well although he's my dad.
Since young, he has been that cold hard man, lost in his own world, blaming the world for his downfall.
But turns out, he's actually a very troubled man who doesn't know how to express himself.
We played battleship.
He won the first game even though it was his first time playing.
Gave chance you see.
I didn't want him to lose as "face" is that important to him.
Was quite happy to see him gleaming over his victory.
Cause the last ship he needed to find only occupied one square so he needed lots of luck to find it.
Than we changed to connect 4.
But I won both rounds, the second unintentional.
So I suggested changing again.
This time it was monopoly.
Started off well, till I owned a property with 3 houses.
He kept landing there.
Looking at how things went, He's really down on his luck. Even in board games.
He kept getting cards that required him to pay.
Kept getting income taxes.
And last but not least, kept landing on my property with the 3 houses.
I only built one with 3 houses but it was more than enough.
He landed there more than 4 times and each time he had to pay 6000bucks.
Soon he had to pass me all his properties and his cash in hand.
Think he strike lottery also not that lucky lo.
Landed on my house again and became bankrupt.

Headed for home after that game. Around 12.
The day would have been different had we not fought.
I think by now we would have watched Up and GI Joe.
Sigh.

I miss my sisters.
The house seems so empty without them.
And I have to wait 4 hours outside on my own tomorrow.
Anyone willing to accompany me? haha
I don't care if you don't get what I'm saying.
This is all just for myself.
If its shit to you like it is to her, its ok.
Its my shit.
Off to bed.
Nights.
Bye.