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Ivan Lian Jie Sheng
Singapore
A peaceful corner in Tampines
deceight 081289

archdevil89@hotmail.com

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My Darling Cheryl Theo
THAT IS WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT
Sports, read, soccer
Nice tan
The Sun when its needed.
Money
If I like you, its your company.
The carrying out of a process called Slacking.
Nice music
Freedom to do anything i want
5 Aspiration. You guys made secondary school life memorable.

BUT THIS ISN'T
Rainy days when it shouldn't.
Being depressed.
Being lied to.
When I think too much.
left with no money.
my com when it lags.

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Andre
Baby Kristen
Caiyun
Chris
Elizabeth
Fadzli
Gerald
Hanyang
Janet
Lindy
Lee Cheng
Leonard
Madeline
Michelle
Pang Chuen
Pearllene
Peng Soon
Pris
Rachel Yeo
Rachel Tan
Rachel Tan's other blog
Rashida
Ramesh
Sarah
Skye
Sheryl
Shuqi
Shuyan
Suzette
V Tay

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Wednesday, October 15, 2008, 3:36 AM

So much for doing this for you.

2 hours of sleep. I'm a walking zombie later.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008, 12:00 AM

Yeah
Mmm

I finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one who makes me feel complete
It started over coffee, we started out as friends
Its funny how from simple things, the best things begin

This time is different (la, la, la, la)
Its all because of you (la, la, la, la)
Its better than it's ever been
Cuz we can talk it through
My favorite line was can I call you sometime?
Its all you had to say
To take my breath away

This is it
Oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one to be with every night
Cause whatever I do
Its just got to be you
My life has just begun, I finally found someone

Ooh, someone
I finally found someone
Ooh

Did I keep you waiting (I didn't mind)
I apologize (baby, that's fine)
I would wait forever
Just to know you were mine
Ya know, I love your hair
(are you sure it looks right? )
I love what you wear
(isnt it too tight)
You're exceptional
I can't wait for the rest of my life

Oh, this is it
Oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one to be with every night
Cause whatever I do
Its just got to be you
(oh, yeah)
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
And whatever I do
Its just got to be you
Ooh, my life has just begun
I finally found someone

Its you :)

EIGHT months and counting

Its the 14 its the 14 its the 14!!
Guess what day it is?
Its special!
Maybe not for you.
But it is for me!!!
And her!!!

My Laopo!
HAPPY 8TH MY LOVELY LAOPO! hehe

I'm glad I can finally put our picture up here.
Its about time =x
Over the past few months,
We had our ups and downs,
We had our testing times.
Times when this relationship we share went through periods of uncertainty.
Times when we couldn't tolerate each other's nonsense.

But we hung on.
And we're here now.
Side by side,
Hand in hand.
And I'm grateful for your perseverance,
Your faithfulness,
Your devotion to us,
and most of the time your whole heartedness to our relationship.
Not forgetting your love.
Which has been,
nothing short of magical.

Thank you laopo! :)

I love you
With all my heart,
and soul.
My one and only laopo

Hopefully we'll have more fun, crazy, mad, siao, wonderful, magical, days and monthsaries, anniversaries, centuries to look forward to!
Cause I am.
Every single one.
Every single one.
Opps.
Did I repeat that?
Cause I'm looking forward to the 9th already.
Hehe

I love you :))

Sunday, October 12, 2008, 1:20 AM

Its been 3 days.

And I miss my sisters already.

The house has been oddly quiet, no guitar playing from rachel, no chasing lucky from cheryl.

Although once they come back, I can't use the car so easily as I can now, I rather they be back.

With my mum overseas with my sisters, I can use the car as and when I want and its great. Only thing that I worry now is the parking. =/ haha

I'm bored.

And she slept already.

Ahhhh..

And I ended up packing my table.

Now it looks neater.

I think.

More space for everything..

Or anything else.

Bored.

And sleepy.

Ok.

Byebye!

She woke up to tell me to sleep early.

Cause I'm sick.

So I shall.

Nights!

Thursday, October 09, 2008, 11:12 PM

Theo Cheryl
The love of my life
Present and future

I hope you don't mind that this is up here.
But all those words up there are true.
I believe in them.
I know you do too.

Cause the truth's finally out.
Which was bound to happen sooner or later.

And I found out that my blog has been compromised and scrutinized.

Oh wells.

If your eyes aren't supposed to be here, I suggest you press control F4 right now.
Or read this part.
You and I are way over.
And there's no chance of getting back.
No chance at all.
Not that I want to also.
What we shared was all in the past.
Whats past is best kept in the past.
Which I have left behind.
Its the present and the future I look forward to.
I don't look back.
Never.
That would be unfair to everyone.
Not that I want to look back too though.
And she has nothing to do with our parting.
Nothing whatsoever.
So stop your rubbish.
Me and her were two singles coming together.
And there's nothing wrong with that.
The only reason why its not said is that you won't take it maturely.
Like now.
Stop being so selfish and self centered.
If you're really a good friend to her,
You'll want her to be happy.
But obviously you aren't such a great friend are you.
Anyway, we are the past.
So its goodbye.

Thats all I have left to say to you.

My Laopo
You are the love of my life.
I've never felt this way to anyone before.
And the feeling has never left since we got together.
Its here to stay.
And I'm here to stay too.
Till the day you kick me out of the door.
(Hope it doesn't happen though) *prays hard* hehe
I've never believed in anything as much as I believe in us.
And you know I lack confidence.
But I'm sure about us.
You may say we still have many years ahead of us,
That we're not sure what the future might bring about,
But if we hold on together, we can and will last.
Trust me.
Hopefully we'll spend even more happy happy days together,
cause I love every moment with you :)
You in my life makes it worth living through it.
And I look forward to the next hug!
Cause I love hugging you.
Feel you close to me.
Hearts touching.
haha.
Don't listen to other people's opinion of me.
Cause only you know what you see in me.
Rather than listen to other people's judgment
and have the viewpoints other than your own.
And I would like to thank you for sticking by me all this while,
Tolerating all my nonsense,
rubbishes,
craps,
and all else you don't deem fit.
Thanks Laopo :)
I'm trying my best to be what you would want.
I'm trying.

Sunday, October 05, 2008, 9:51 PM

Yea.
I suck.
I totally agree.
I'm horrible.
I'm the worst boyfriend you can even find.
I'm dumb.
I'm useless.
Who would ever want me.
I'm hot and cold.
I'm cold and hot.
Whatever that pleases you.
I'm indecisive.
I'm selfish.
I'm stingy.
I think too much.
First you remove me on friendster.
and then now you remove me on ur blog.
what next.
your life?

3:24 AM

COMMON SENSE

Isit a vulgar word?
Isit a word that makes your blood boil?
Isit a word that cannot be said?
Does this word insult you?

Its not and it doesn't.

Well. Not to me that is.
I don't know about you people out there.
But to SOME, its an insult.
wth.

Don't you have common sense?

Does that sentence offend you?

I wasn't even online.
I told you I wasn't.
You insisted I was.
Of course I would ask if you have common sense.
If I don't reply on msn AND I'm appearing offline,
I'M NOT ONLINE.
omg.

Thats common sense.

Forgive me for asking but you left me no choice with your insistence.
If I send that common sense message right after you said I didn't reply, it would be my fault, that I would acknowledge.
But even after telling you I wasn't online and you insisted, of course I'll ask if you had common sense.
You assumed I didn't reply after I reached home but I did. And I even send you a second message.
But did you message me? No. Not even after realising I wasn't online.
Or if you still had that thought that I was.
So what if you cleaned the dog's pee and bathed.
So what if the phone's in the room.
Its not a million miles away.
You could have messaged me after you bathed, or even send a short message before you went to bathe but no, you choose to go online and insist that I was there and think I wouldn't message.
Wth la.
You always have the think you're always right mentality and even when you say sorry, you do it so reluctantly.
If you think I'm wrong, look and READ and think again.
Cause I am not.
You started it by insisting that I was online even after I didn't reply for an hour and I told you already.
You must have been too busy playing your game.

Whatever.

I can't be bothered by such stupid and silly arguments already.
If you want to continue such senseless quarrels, go find someone else to quarrel with, not me.
Goodbye.

Thursday, October 02, 2008, 12:17 AM

a new day awaits, count the dates

Another day where the alarm will ring at 6.30am again.

Sigh. haha

I like to wake up early, and I don't like to wake up early.
I bet I lost you there.

Its simple, I like the peace morning brings about, the fact that the sky is still dark and the sun hasn't risen.
But I hate the waking up part.

Cause to what I know, its a natural instinct to want to sleep more when you're awoken by someone or the damned alarm clock.

I've thought it through.
About my time.
And I realise yesterday I was super down.
But I could think clearer today.
I realise that I must be more open.
That she needs her friends as much as me.
For company or anything when I'm in camp.
Hopefully, I won't make such a big fuss next time.
I'll try.

Luckily camp isn't a stay in camp.
Or I don't think I can survive 2 years.

It maybe good for her as well.
Study study!
And time to catch up with her friends.
haha

I just want to see us still together after my army.
That would be.. nothing short of wonderful.

Think positive and look to it with optimism!
Thats what the damned officer told me when he said I had to go Pasir Ris camp for my service.
Hopefully, they're changing it.
But I think that sentence applies to here.

Just got back from her place and I'm yawning like mad.
But I'm glad I could spend time with her.
Albeit accompanying her while she studies.
Cause I'm able to wrap my hands around her anytime I want,
just being with her.
Hehe.

And I'm off!
Good night to you.
Who ever you are.
REC Ivan reporting for duty tomorrow.
Sian.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008, 12:23 AM

fake a smile, for all this while

fake a smile, for all this while

My life is changing.
My sleeping times are different now.
Much much earlier.
I'm yawning way way earlier than before.

And I'm not able to spend the same amount of time I used to spend with her.

Sigh.
It feels as if we're drifting apart.
But I can't have that thought.
I can't be there for her when she needs me.
Like lunch.
You may think its a small matter,
but to me, its quite an issue.
You wouldn't like me doing the same thing would you.
Maybe I think too much.
Although it may seem so simple to you.
I'm sorry but I just don't like it.

You seem to be changing.

Sometimes I don't even feel your love anymore.
Sometimes I do.

Now your friends play more important roles in your life.
Taking my place.
Because I can't be there.
Even when you said you only wanted me to send the song you wanted,
in the end?
Your friend sent it to you instead.
What you expect me to think?
Yea. Its my fault that I left earlier and I couldn't send you.

Its not that I don't trust you.
I do.
But sometimes your actions make me find it hard to.
I try my best to think you had no choice or something.

But I just hate it that your so much closer to your friends that to me now.
And I'm very sure there would be a second time, cause you would have no choice again.

Or maybe its just me.
I'm an idiot.
Sigh.
I'm sorry to blow things up when you think its alright.
I'm selfish.
Forgive me.
Maybe I'm just too tired.
I hold on to stuff very tightly.
And I'm ranting incoherently.
Cause I don't want to lose anything or anyone,
My mind's thinking way too much.
where's the off button,
Switch it off.
Just know what you're doing,
and have me in your thoughts somewhere.
To think if I would mind.
Or you can just choose to ignore.
If you can't stand my nonsense, just tell me.
I know I'm giving alot now with the lousy feeling inside me.